dont break my heart

Thursday, November 30, 2006

Heloo sumer..

Time for another update.. Time check: 0028 hrs.. Haha..

Wednesday
Guess wat.. I dyed my hair again.. loL~ This time its 7N Medium blonde from Revlon. Heheh.. Been using tad Brand since god knows when. Wakakaka~

Went to Vivo City in da evening to met up wif Nassir, Fareez, Ina, Shahfardani & Okoi. Its my first time there.. And it was HUGE!!! Haha.. Got lost while finding them.. But they're actualli at HarbourFront Center.. loL~ While searching for them high and low, terserempak Rafili and his member.. Diorang pon ngah jalan2 carik makan.. Hehe.. He's still da same.. Big as ever.. =P WE parted soon enuff coz i'm meeting CB.
We chilled at Vivo.. till ard 2230hr before heading back home.. =P

P.S My fone is playing trick wif me.. Urgh.. But u guys still can contact me @ 9848!@#$.

Tuesday
Haha.. A special surprise visit from CB to Nassir for making such a wildful entry recently. All along i guess he was frustrated and felt pressurised from his family. Ina, Syzw'e, Shahfardani, Fareez and moi was there to see if Nassir was alright.. I guess one of my comment did hit him on da right spot yaa..

At night.. We had dinner and have a simple "foto" session.. Haha..

Some fun shot we had @ Tampines..

Monday
Nothing much happening.. Went out meeting Mimi @ Woodlands. And have to except the fact tad my fone is still DEAD!! I cant contact anyone and so did anyone trying to contact me. Haizz.. Cant blame it.. Its WET!!

blackRose signed off Thursday, November 30, 2006

Monday, November 27, 2006

Hey all.. Juz took a test from Eekz bloggie and tis is da results.. OMG!!!

You are The Devil

Materiality. Material Force. Material temptation; sometimes obsession

The Devil is often a great card for business success; hard work and ambition.

Perhaps the most misunderstood of all the major arcana, the Devil is not really "Satan" at all, but Pan the half-goat nature god and/or Dionysius. These are gods of pleasure and abandon, of wild behavior and unbridled desires. This is a card about ambitions; it is also synonymous with temptation and addiction. On the flip side, however, the card can be a warning to someone who is too restrained, someone who never allows themselves to get passionate or messy or wild - or ambitious. This, too, is a form of enslavement. As a person, the Devil can stand for a man of money or erotic power, aggressive, controlling, or just persuasive. This is not to say a bad man, but certainly a powerful man who is hard to resist. The important thing is to remember that any chain is freely worn. In most cases, you are enslaved only because you allow it.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

blackRose signed off Monday, November 27, 2006

Thursday, November 23, 2006

Dear Diary,

As I was laying in my bed the other night I started to think, what would happen if I were to die tonight as I lie here?

Would my friends know I cared?

Would they know that I loved them with all my heart?

Would they know that those nights we sat in the dark just talking... have meant so much to me?

Do they know all those time we laughed until we cried.... were some of the best moments of my life?

Do they really know that I hold a special place for them in my heart?

That I smile whenever I see their picture hanging on my mirror?

Do they really know? How much longer DO I have?

So I guess tonight is just a good a time as any... because you never know...this MAY be the last time I will ever talk to you because we all do not know what tomorrow holds....

So.....

If tomorrow, I should never wake up
I wanted to say I'm sorry.
I'm sorry for what I have done ....
And what I haven't done.
I could have done more
I should have done more
If I harmed u,
yelled at u,
ignored u,
or didn't care....
I'm sorry.
Forgive me, please?

If tomorrow
I should never wake up
I wanted to say thank u.

If me and u were the best of friends,
Thank u for always being here.
There were times when I thought I could never leave u
And if we HAVE parted...
Thank you for teaching me to love and let go.
Thank you for teaching me that it doesnt matter if we never see each other.
Because you taught me love can move past that.
And if we are still best friends...
Know I treasure that too.
I love you.

If me and you only talked once in a while
And didn't go to the same parties,
And were not good friends:
Thank you for not humbling me,
Or tearing me down.
I only wish I had taken the chance to love you more.

If you were someone I once had a crush on
I always did admire how you treated people...
How you lived your life.
I watched the way you walked down the halls everyday.
I admired how you always seemed to know the RIGHT thing to say,
Even if it was never directed to me.
I always saw the sun in your smile.
And the sea through your eyes.
Thank you for making me believe ...
That there MIGHT be someone PERFECT for me...
Even if it isn't you ~ Know that I even thought I loved you.

If you and I were once friends...
Even if for a little bit...
Thank you for teaching me about understanding,
And growing up,
Teaching me how to move on.
Thank you for the times we had together...
And I beg you forgive me for whatever happened
That tore us apart.

You are not perfect,
I am not either.
But thank you for having a part in my life.

If tomorrow,
I should never wake up,
I wanted to say everything I never had time to.

blackRose signed off Thursday, November 23, 2006

Wednesday, November 22, 2006

Gawd.. I cant help it but i juz nid to BLOG!!.. Tangan gatal arr.. Hehe~ Yup.. 1 paper down.. 1 more to go.. Tads tis fridae!! Mechanics & Relativity Paper.. @ 2 1/2 hrs paper.. Damn shiong..
Until den.. We meet again..

Oh yea Anwar.. Cool blog do visit his @.. http://wizardfox.blogspot.com/

OkiEs.. Me nk gi main game.. Nak lepas kn stress.. Urgh.. Bsok sambung blajar lagi.. Haizz.. Gini la kalo balek ke skola.. :|

Before i forget.. Someone in CB gonna celebrate his 22nd b'dae in a few hrs time!! Hehe..

Happy Birthdae Nas Baobe'd!!

blackRose signed off Wednesday, November 22, 2006

Monday, November 20, 2006

I'll be away for the time being..

blackRose signed off Monday, November 20, 2006

Saturday, November 18, 2006

Hmm.. Its weekend.. See how time flies without we knowing it.. Been busy mugging for exams but i'm worried abt my current position now. Wud i be able to pull thru tis first semester exams.. Haiz.. At times like this i'm starting to panic.. But nobody cud see tad rite.. Hmm.. I wonder~

Yeap.. 2 papers onli tis semester..

Tis coming Weds & Fri.. Urghh.. I hope i can pull thru~ Anywae.. How u find the foto below? Beautiful rite.. Hehhee..

blackRose

Thanks for da flower Ina.. Hehe.. Hari tu bunga chempaka.. skarang blackrose.. nnt aper pulak ehk.. heheh~

Juz a thought.. Hehe.. At this hour who knows wad does thru my mind.. Somehow or rather i felt tad there is still insecurity between us and because of that.. the trust we hold is not strong.. therefore making the bond very shaky..

On a serius note.. tads how i felt.. I dunno if everyone tinks like tad but tads how i felt.. Juz a facade in everyone's appearance.. Somehow or rather a gust of wind cud everything will crumble everything.. So sad rite..

Nothing much.. juz a few cents worth of my thoughts.. All i hope is dat we cud be more trust between us.. No more bebual world.. no more soap operas.. etc.. Juz be truthful and embrace wad we had between us.

End note.. I juz like to share tis song.. It goes out to you guys..

NOTHING'S GONNA CHANGE MY LOVE FOR YOU (Glenn Medeiros)

If I had to live my life without you near me

The days would all be empty

The nights would seem so long

With you I see forever oh so clearly

I might have been in love before

But it never felt this strong

Our dreams are young

And we both know they'll take us

Where we want to go

(Chorus 1)

Hold me now

Touch me now

I don't want to live without you

(Chorus 2)

Nothing's gonna change my love for you

You ought know by now how much I love you

One thing you can be sure of

I'll never ask for more than your love

(Chorus 3)

Nothing's gonna change my love for you

You ought know by now how much I love you

The world may change my whole life through

But nothing's gonna change my love for you

If the road ahead is not so easy,

Our love will lead the way for us

Like a guiding star

I'll be there for you if you should need me

You don't have to change a thing

I love you just the way you are

So come with me and share the view

I'll help you see forever too

P.S. We'll meet again tonite.. Cya in ur best outfit.. Hehehe ~

blackRose signed off Saturday, November 18, 2006

Wednesday, November 15, 2006

Tidak ku sangka di belakang rumah ada pokok chempaka. Hehe.. Original warna kuning.. Tk pernah nampak chempaka warna biru.. loL.. Tapi namer Chempaka Biru melekat sampai skarang.. Wakakkaa...

Bunga chempaka

Tapi sayang seribu kali sayang.. Blom musim bunga lagi.. Harum wangi mcm bunga cina mati.. Err.. Frangipani (in english). Hehe~

OkieS.. Nk gi mandi pastu blajar.. Arghh.. Exams nxt wk..

Let's race~

blackRose signed off Wednesday, November 15, 2006

Updates updates.. Heee~

Last wkend, another hari rayer outing wif CB on sat & wif my SISPEC trainees on sundae. Never had i go out for hari rayer outing in da past yrs like tis year.. Even my parent say.. Fuh sakan berayer betol ko ni.. Hahhaa~ Really enjoy myself.. Weee~

CB outing.. We went managed to cover hilmi, firdaus, okoi, herman, zul and da last house is asrie's again. Hehehe~

Fotos taken on outing wif CB:

ON sundae pulak.. jln rayer bersamer my former trainees; Irfaan, Ijad, Ahmad Asri, Hakim, Reza, Khaimil, Samir & Ramesh.. COvered a quite a number of places including rumah amirah & Irfaan's PC in Yishun.. Met Kee Siong, another trainee of mine there. Had loads of fun but yet cudnt catch da last train connecting to Boonlay.. Got to catch a cab back home.. Sobz sobz.. But overall.. i had FUN tad nite~ WEeee..

Fotos wif my former trainees in SISPEC ALPHA:

Nite nitez..

blackRose signed off Wednesday, November 15, 2006

Monday, November 13, 2006

Sori lamer tk update.. Nari tanggal 22 Syawal.. Hehe.. Ada yg maseh berayerr.. Tapi pada ku, sudah puas ku kluar rayer.. Dari minggu-minggu yg lepas, tiap sabtu ngan ahad.. Asyik kluar berayer je.. Berayer ngan CempakaBiru, kekawan chat, trainee-trainee lamer..

Below gambar-gambar yg dipetik biler berayer.. hehe enjoy..